Complicated mind makes me dizzy~~

Well is 2 am in the morning am typing this post~~ can't sleep my mind is making me wake again. Seems like '09 doesn't starts well for me~~ problems still coming to my life again~~ why just can't my life be simple as I wish for? I just wish to have normal job where I can slowly build my career so tht I'll have a good life in future. Try my best to prove what I can do best~~ not like now.. conflicts happening all around the world which bring the economy down.. This effects the job that I'm working~~ now I heard they are gonna split the shares of the company~~ THAT SOUNDS BAD!! maybe I will loss my job soon~~ searching for new job again~~ I just wish to earn enough money to support my living at my mean time because my mom don't give me a cent for my car loans/allowance for living although she still support me with house and dinner. I just wish to have a peaceful life not like now at this second I'm typing my blog. That 2 old forks is arguing down thr where I'm sooo tired already to make them shut the fuck up~~ I dont wish 1 to be like some kid who have excellent life where they are driving luxurious car/ living in a hug house or having a bunch of dollar given by thier dad's.. What I wish for is just a simple life. I'm not saying that I come from a poor family~~ Well atleast I tried alot of fabulous food went to great placese before. Well what I can say is things that we see can't jurge by the book of its cover. Keep telling myself things won't go that bad as what I'm thinking~~ seems like I'm just lieing to myself~~ haha!!.. Every topic in my life seems like there is problems.

That day I was watching this movie called Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless who act by Jim Carrey I though his movie will be the best but he disappionted me. Not much comedy in there but what get me intrested is. The story is saying a couple had been together for year and end up feeling sick of being together~~ so they plan to break up and forget everything of thier memories being together. So the whole story is saying they hired a specialist to wash out all thier romance momeries for the past few years. So that make me think is there really things like that~~ where I can just go somewhere far and wash all my memories away. Start a new life in a place where I'm new.

Ahhhh!! stop thinking negative~~ have to continue my life again!!! tomorrow is a new day to continue~~ have to stop crabbing again.. hmmmm... wish me LUCK!!